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Doyle's Devotions to the Goddess
My life. Love it, leave it. Choices I've made, regretted, accepted, you'll find it all here.
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Friday, December 27, 2002 :::
Gah... parents coming to visit for the holidays. Well, mother and step-dad. Not looking forward to it. Luckily, it's only for a few hours though, but they always make me feel like I have to pretend to be someone else. We spent like 4 hours this morning cleaning the house and getting ready. For what?? So they can say the house looks lovely?? Big deal. Now I am going to have to put on an act and pretend everything is perfect and I'm all happy... joy of the holidays.
Suz is depressed. My fault. I don't treat her the way she wants to be treated. I don't know what to do. I love her with all my heart, I buy gifts for her year round, cook for her, make her tea/coffee to cheer her up, clean (sometimes), try to play games or watch a DVD with her... she says that's it's nice and all but it doesn't make her feel special. I wish I knew what does. So far the only thing I discovered that she really enjoyed doing with me is reading to me, or talking about stories. So obviously I like doing those with her. It just doesn't seem enough.
May the Goddess help me, help us. Isis shine down and lift our spirits. For Suz, the love that is my life for all the forevers. For myself, a troubled soul devoid of expressing my emotions. Goddess bring happiness and love to us, ignite the sparks of these embers and cause our fire to burn warm, deep and bright. Thank you.
::: posted by Scott at 2:16 PM
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